Initial Thoughts

"Mommy, how are weddings made?


"You see, son. When a man and a woman really love one another..."




As I chew on a delicious bar of white chocolate and seek warmth under a fluffy comforter in my Las Vegas home, I turn over thought after thought on how I should begin this blog and what I should have for dinner. While everyone else updates their facebook statuses with their success on dieting and exercise, I pull out another chocolate bar. Hmm... I might ruin my dinner.

Oh! But I digress.

So let's start at the very beginning.

A very good place to start.

When you speak you begin with ABC. When you sing you begin with Do Re Mi.

Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti...

Sorry...

I don't think I 've ever taken a bigger step than the one I am about to take. Everything about marriage seems so permanent. As far as I know, you commit to one person for the rest of your life. You buy a house that will take the rest of your life to pay off. You bear children who you will raise for years and years to come. Marriage will set the tone for the rest of your life.

For my fiance and I, the decision to marry was more gradual than your conventional exchange of a nervous "Will you?" and an emotional "I do!" We talked about it on many occasions and confirmed it with our utmost sincere feelings until we were comfortable scheduling a date.

I sometimes do yearn for that warm feathery feeling one experiences while your Mr. Darcy is down on bended knee offering a tiny but sparkly and expensive manifestation of his love (or tolerance, haha). Ah, Mr. Darcy. I highly recommend Jane Austen novels. She knew what lay in woman's heart. But regardless of whether or not you miss out on her well written novels, we took time making our decision.

Marriage...

I know of it but don't feel like I understand a lot of it. To best articulate my innermost concerns, I must write in several run on sentences. Ups and downs. Differences to overcome. Growth. Giving and receiving support. Fairness. Roles and responsibilities. Sharing dreams and expectations. Breaking expectations. Crying and Laughing. Victory and defeats. Love and maybe hate. Things about him I never knew before. Raising children. Being unselfish. Being selfish... Too much thinking.

Marriage is a long time. Marriage takes time. Marriage is bit overwhelming.

This blog is bit overwhelming.

I hope you're not too bored or amazingly peeved at all my grammatically incorrect sentences. So I shall end here. My initial thoughts on my own marriage are summarized in the facts that I am anxious but love him with all my heart.

So please allow me to share, vent, inspire as I take up more Internet space with Another Marriage/Wedding Blog and Then Some.